Goldfish

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• Infinite pain

  Jan 18

  In Only Lovers Left Alive, there is a scene where Eva needs to leave. She started to pack books into her tiny suitcase, and before everything, she picked Infinite Jest. I never read it, and I knew I have to read it. Years later M gave me the first chapter of Infinite Jest. He decided to translate it, and this was his first attempt. I was honored and happy that he chose me to read it. But I couldn'…

• F is missing

  Jan 02

  My problem with the work is that the fun is missing. I completely forgot that and immersed myself so deep into the work that I ignored not only that but most basic human needs. All because my monster brain needs some hobby to be entertained, it needs its toys. But it all started with fun. Programming the Commodore 64 to draw shapes was pure fun. Then creating websites and blogs, then creating app…

  

• Zed's dead baby

  Dec 24

  I just discovered leaflet and the AT protocol of bluesky. Very similar to what I described yesteray to have a small community of people reading and writing on open web without the influence of social media evil algorithms. But it striked me: the time for that is passed, we had a golden era and that was it. Trying to resurrecte that blogging experience is a deadend. If the need is still there then …

  

• Do you write without readers?

  Dec 23 ⎯ ❤️1

  There are two sides to publishing platforms: writing and reading. There are things I like about writing in Fika. It has a proofreading feature, it is clean, and it is not bloated with useless features, and so on. In short, the first side, writing, is fine. The reader side is missing. I write these mostly for myself. I am not a professional writer, nor am I seriously seeking user interaction like i…

  

• Creation queue and more on agency

  Dec 22

  Speaking of different queues my brain uses to burn calories, I missed an important one: the creation queue. Creating something nonexistent, a code, a photograph, or a piece of writing. And one thing about this queue is different: it creates more leads/ideas than others. It's a self-inserting mechanism; the more time you spend here, the longer the queue gets with more items/ideas. Like the idea of …

  

• What is the origin of agency?

  Dec 21

  What I admire in people is agency. The confidence to not accept the norm and have the courage to change. This is a different matter than confidence or self-doubt. Agency means you know this is not right and act on it. You know there should be a better way. You know you cannot wait for others to fix it. Along the way you have doubt, but not about the original "this is wrong," but about the methods …